Friday, August 31

This river must flow


riverfall
Originally uploaded by Jean 1.

In my life I have songs that I have sung for so many years that I sing them without thought..they just kind of fly from my lips, sometimes in tune, sometimes not so much. As of late I've begun to focus on the songs I am singing, listening to words that have long lost their conviction and just become a part of rote vocalizations. This past Wednesday I was standing in the church service singing along with everyone else when Holy Spirit nudged my spirit and focused me in on the words I had been singing but not really meaning.
"Here I am to worship,
Here I am to bow down,
Here I am to say that You're my God.
You're all together worthy , all together lovely, all together wonderful to me."

And then I couldn't sing anymore, I couldn't get the words to come out around the lump in my throat. My focus up to that point, to be completely honest, had been "whew, we made it on time to church". But once the words hit my spirit, I realized that the reason I was in that exact seat at that exact moment was to worship. to bow my heart, to proclaim God as my God....because He is worthy, lovely and wonderful to me.
As the week as progressed this song has come to me again and again...as I sit on the couch (why am I here? To Worship), as I pray with my kids (why am I here? To bow down my heart), as I sit down to write at my laptop (why am I here? To say that God is my God). I am able to go through my days because God is wonderful and lovely to me by blessing me with this family and life, for no other reason than because He is God.

2 comments:

simply salzillo said...

Well said! That is an amazing place to be!!! I've been there too and I can no longer sing the words if my mind is else where or my heart is not right. I was prompted with, "it's not right to lie, yet you lie every Sunday as you sing what you don't mean". Talk about repentance. Thanks for sharing!

Alana said...

Hi Jean,

Thanks so much for your comment on the school papers. Very good advice. And thanks for stopping by my blog.

So true about singing and not even thinking about the words. It is nice when we have those moments of clarity to remind us to refocus!